Attitude,
Wee Shan Le ,
I'll Cry You A River . Seal Your Lips,
Went Away,
Your Smile,
Thank You,
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Monday, January 4, 2010 Will You Keep Believing ? School is fine today and Zhiyi kept smacking me ! I love it ! Principal talked very loudly . I Hate it . Spot-Check tomorrow . And I've to clip up my irriating fringe and to unfold my skirt . I Hate it . I know when I look at you in class, you'll never know . I Hate it . I cried and cried for you . I Hate it . I Hate it . I Hate it . I Hate it when you do not know everything . I Hate it . I admit . I admit I can't stop thinking of you . I do not hate it, because I'm honest . I kept reminding myself that everything would be over, that I do not need you, do not miss you, do not love you . Yet every single part of me told me that those were just lies . Perfect lies of mine . I tell myself over and over again that I'll forget you . And this is also another lie . Because when I thought I can get over it, and when I saw you . Yes, I know cannnot get over it . You're still a part of me . And I know you do not know . I do not know whether should I cry or laugh . ( Sad Face ) I sing many many cheers to cheer myself up . I encourage myself . I force myself to smile . I force mysef to laugh . I try to sleep at night . That all didn't work . I do not like it when it did not work . I feel so lonely . I have my brothers & sisters, big big groups of loyal friends . But I'm still lonely . I can't get used to it . I miss you beside me . When I turn to my right, you weren't here . When I turn to my left, you weren't here . When I turn behind, you weren't here . When I turn back to the front, you weren't here, too . I really cannot get used to the days when you're not beside me . I miss you . & My Heart dropped when I saw it . Yes, I'm a fool . And I'm totally aware of it . I am a clever fool . We are hanging on to a breakable string, save yourself . Not me . Please . And I know I'll continue believing . Because loving you isn't a dream . My dream is... |